What if there was a time
When I could switch
Go back
Follow
What my heart originally told me to do?
What if I wasn't crashing with every word
Giving up
Letting go?
What if the choices I was presented
Decided themselves
Made it easier?
What if I didn't love two
There was just one
True solution?
What if there was a time
When I could switch?
What if there was a time
When I could switch
Go back
Follow
What my heart originally told me to do?
What if I wasn't crashing with every word
Giving up
Letting go?
What if the choices I was presented
Decided themselves
Made it easier?
What if I didn't love two
There was just one
True solution?
What if there was a time
When I could switch?
Queso.
Je suis en amour avec lui. J'aimerais que ce soit réciproque.
And it's really hard for him to not understand that. Because it's just there and I can't get rid of it. And there's so many things I want. But I can't keep myself from wanting him.
Anyway. My Sexy Sausage Monkeys.
I have nothing to do on this lovely Saturday. So I think I'm going to mosey on down to my bedroom and watch NCIS until I pass out.
BingBangBoom. That's how babies are made.
Seeing my friends hurt
Being selfish
Getting the bad things I deserve
Falling for the wrong guy
Falling for the wrong age
Falling
Crying over a guy
Crying in general
Being stuck in a hospital because you're dumb as fuck
Hospital food
Doctors
Psych evaluations
Counselors
Someone telling me what my feelings are
My mom yelling at me for trying again
Knowing that I didn't try because of him but knowing people with think otherwise
Knowing I fail
Being kind of grateful that I failed but knowing I'll try again
Not replying to texts but not being in the mood
Making my brother tell my friends
Drinking stuff to make me throw up
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So here's what happens. I'm hurt here. Right? And I'm just wanting to go to sleep but I'm waiting on people and... I don't know. Hoping? Does it exist? Oh well anyway. Chris says "Wanna hang out on Friday?" Now I'm not talking Christofer Drew. But Chris Novelli. He's going to be in Texas for a while. He already asked me to pass out stuff for him at a YouTube gathering and I said yes. Then he texts me this and you know what I do?
I say no.
It hurts that bad.
I don't even want to think about enjoying myself. I want to sit here in my own self pity and cry until I can't anymore. Then I'm going to go outside and run until I vomit. And then I'm